7th June 2022

In my early 30s I went through a long, drawn out ‘dark night of the soul’ that resulted in a near-death experience. 

After years of physical hurt and emotional pain, exhausting mental burnout, too many broken and dysfunctional relationships to count, nothing but shattered hopes and dreams, I died and was reborn in a timeless instant. I experienced absolute joy and love for everyone and everything. I felt unimaginable peace and total trust in myself and the universe. I was of this world, and yet so much more than it. I was infinite and unconditional love. I was everything and nothing.

29th October 2021

Today when I went out into the fields just down the lane from where I live, I was immediately aware of the lively and incessant bird song that rebounded through the trees around me. I felt an instant thrill course through my whole body and I pondered whether the birds were sending me a direct message to realise just how wonderful life is and that I should be living with gratitude in every moment of every day. Whether there was in fact a message in the bird song or not didn’t matter to me. The utter exhilaration and connection I felt to the real, living world around me was enough to make my day. I felt glad to have been out there in that moment bearing witness to it; being part of it.

15th September 2021

While out walking today it occurred to me that so many of today’s problems of being human stem from a lack of respect for the natural world. Over the years I have discovered that while out walking you start to develop a sense of peace as you gradually re-connect with nature, bringing yourself gently and smoothly back in line with the natural rhythms of life. In that peace and as you start to re-connect with nature you begin to see everything in a new and fresh light. 

30th July 2021

Some studies say that we humans need to expose ourselves to the natural world for at least five hours each month – that means spending five hours outdoors in the fresh air – in order to be healthy in mind, body and spirit. Others claim that we should go out for at least ten minutes a day, and yet others recommend thirty minutes a day.

21st June 2021

When I am with my mother, I am at home. I am nourished, I am held, I am so deeply loved. Her love for me has no boundaries and, deep at the centre of my being, I know this. I feel it.

22nd May 2021

I was feeling a bit down, a bit irritable and out of sorts for a reason I couldn’t even begin to imagine. What was going on? What was this feeling? And perhaps more to the point, why was it happening? I looked out the window at the growing daylight and sipped my coffee in quiet contemplation.

22nd April 2021

There are times in life when everyone becomes un-grounded. It usually happens when we feel stressed and our bodies get stuck in that sympathetic nervous system response of ‘fight or flight’ and suddenly, before you know it, you feel off balance, out of kilter, off colour, out of sorts, unsettled, grumpy, intolerant crabby, impatient, couldn’t care less. Whatever it may be, you feel uneasy and not quite right.

24th March 2021

Trees are natural fractals. 

Each tree, right from the trunk to each and every leaf tip, is a copy of the one that came before it. Fractals are described as self-similar because they are endless inclusions of similar patterns with similar patterns. Fractals can feel familiar to us because they are everywhere in nature: whether we are looking at trees, flowers, rivers or mountains, all of nature is constantly revealing its inherent fractal patterns if and when we truly stop and bother to look.

 As Ben Weiss explains, “whenever you observe a series of patterns repeating over and over again, at many different scales, and where any small part resembles the whole, that's a fractal.”

9th March 2021

For the past few years now, whenever I go out walking in nature, I get a very strong, almost tangible feeling that whatever I see around me is actually a reflection of what is going on somewhere deep inside me. And vice versa. Just yesterday, for instance, I was walking through some very low cloud in the early hours of the morning and, as per usual where I live, there wasn’t another soul around: just me and the natural world gently waking up together. As I plodded on alone, I became aware that my boots were noisily crunching through the gravel on the old railway path and, suddenly mindful of the noise I was making in the absence of any other, I reflexively slowed down so as to reduce the magnified impact and reverberation of my footfall in the eerily damp, tunnel-like whiteness surrounding me. There was not a soul around and yet I was conscious of making too much noise all the same. So, what was that all about?